Having a Baby... Dos

Well if you didn't know by now Baby Dos was a girl!! Well is a girl. The whole experience was so different this time it made me smile.

So here is a little breakdown:

1. I was informed in the hospital room that I would be walking to the operating room for my scheduled C Section. I asked, "Wait with my butt showing?"

2. When the loud nurse comes in and asks the other nurse to switch patients becasue she can't find a vein for an IV, it is OK to give your husband the look.

3. Operating rooms are colder when you aren't rushed in and it is always weird to see and hear the nurses prepping and having common conversation.

4. If it is a GIRL and you didn't know it, your husband is likely to stare at her and never let you see her, then to watch her for over an hour while your parents and his sit in a waiting room wondering, "Did Shannon's last C Section take so long."

5. NEVER let your husband out of the room while, your toddler is visiting for the first time, all grandparents are there, and your cell phone won't work to beckon him back.

See fun times. Although, it has been fun, so far B is a great sleeper, I have been able to nurse for 9 days... (With H, I lasted 8 days then pumped) Although I do find myself forgetting so much from the early days, like when do you eat solids? Can't you walk yet? When are you gonna get night and day confused? How long do you eat every 2-3 hours?

Anywho, another bonus is my heart did grow, and H and B both have special parts, but my son does look like a giant now.

Oops.

Today it happened. I am not proud of it and I have been thinking about it all day.

I snapped. I yelled at my 2 year old. I locked myself into my bedroom after telling him to get out. I sat down I cried and prayed for forgiveness.

Now, this was a very ugly side of me today, but I feel that it should be shared because I think most mom's are probably afraid to admit when it happens. It was terrible.

H knows, that a baby is coming, he has recently started preschool, and is a full blown full of energy 2 year old boy. He is caught in between baby/only child and becoming the big boy he is. It's rough. With me being 38 weeks pregnant I can't run with him outside. He has always had trouble falling asleep, fights naps,teeters on major meltdowns, plays tricks, and has a speech delay (causing him frustration). I am hormonal and stressed. This track out was supposed to restful when I feel fitful. Tonight as Adam was trying to get H in his pj's I could see the temper tantrum and tricks coming out, I could also feel my anxiety beginning to rise.

H and I made up this morning and he still loves me. THANK GOD. I know he and I were both in the wrong, me more so for loosing it over his temper. I know that we are doing all we can, but sometimes I feel it is so hard when so many people are involved with our kids. I know our family strives to be consistent with what Adam and I do at home, but I feel even to Adam I am nagging about how to direct H.

Now that Baby Dos, is coming so soon, I pray and ask for your prayers that next week we rest and relax. I know that unfortunately today is probably not the last time I snap, but that just makes me feel worse.

Full Plate? Yes Please!

Anyone who has known me my adult life will agree: I get stressed out.

I know my problem, I do too much. It's partly the ADD and partly the perfectionist in me coming out. Let's take a look at the this October shall we?

1. I am due to have Baby Dos October 29th, giving me approximately 3 1/2 weeks until arrival. In this 4-3 week time period I have a list. I want the nursery done (duh), car seat installed, all batteries loaded, laundry cleaned, bags packed, dinners frozen, bottles, toys, pump, paci's

sterilized, books read, thank you notes sent (which hand delivery was within 24hrs, but I need stamps) and H's schedule outlined. Not to mention wipes open... who wants to struggle with

that? I know little things like that sets me off.

2. I am attempting a church project where H and I bake cookies, brownies, and other goods, to sell for donations which all money goes back to the church. So, Sunday we (I) baked from 1:30-7:30. I wanted it wrapped with a ribbon, a label telling the food item and the Bible verse church has been using. Oh, and I wanted it photographed to show H helped. See below. All baked goods in round 1 needed to go to work with Adam on Monday and me that evening. Round 2 will be available Saturday with yep, a YARD SALE... (thankfully my dear friend wouldn't let me do

round 2).

3. The Yard Sale. While nesting I have found we have too much stuff. We have a small house and I am only getting bigger, along with our family. We are on a budget and the stuff has got to go. So? Yard Sale. Step one was a children's consignment sale I did. Next step, sell all leftovers and

all the other random things we've collected. Now... like I said, I am a perfectionist and I do not like doing things badly. So I've done research. The garage as we speak is in the process of staging. Items priced and divided into "departments."

Ok, so maybe there are only 3 things but that is just this week. Not to mention, wedding showers, birthday dinners, book club at our home, Halloween, H at preschool, random things I

want to attempt. (Hair bows anyone?) All of those just listed? Yeah that's this week too. Well I have only broken down once and that's good for me too.

But the deal is yes I get stressed out. Yes I take on too much. Yes I freak out. But honestly I enjoy the crazy too-much-on-my-plate thing.